Preparation

It is now frigging 6.20 in the morning.
Have been getting up REALLY early these few days
to settle the PTPTN form
because the website is usually jam for the whole day.
Only manage to log in before everyone is awake or in the middle of the night.
I am so bloody tired every night.
Ultimately the form is done.
Time to prepare documents and arrange them nicely into my pocket file.

Schedule is again tight today.
Am meeting up with UTR babes later for a mini farewell brunch.
Fan is back in Malaysia!
She couldn't join us, though,
got to be quarantined for a week at home. :(
Some shopping I will do after the brunch.
Stuff must be ready tonight, and I still got tons that I haven't get.
Die!
And tonight I have got to pack my things and all
so I would probably turning in late again.
OH NO!
When can I have a long and nice rest?
I don't know how am I gonna survive through the whole orientation week, man!
They'd better not waking me up at 4
to listen to some crabs talking craps!
Other than that I am actually quite looking forward to the weekend.
Sabah, here I come!
Be good to me, alright? :D

What a day.

This is gonna be a looooong and boring post.

Was out all day to settle various laborious stuff yesterday.
Mum freaking woke me up at about 7a.m.,
picked me up from home,
and headed to BP Centre for a medical check-up.
Took X-Ray and urine test for the first time.
Was sort of nervous when I was told to collect my urine into a little bottle.
I thought I was going to stay inside the toilet for the whole morning
to wait for myself to urinate. LMAO.

Had bak kut teh for brunch after that.
Then took passport size photos and made copies of important documents.
The photo taken was ugly man!
Wondered why every passport size photo of mine could come out like that!
Except for the one taken in school.
So I asked him for their records,
for the company was happened to be the photographer in charge,
and they have found it!
Hahahahahahaha.
So happy can die.
Now I don't have to use ugly photos anymore.
I bought 20 pieces of that nice one.
HAHA.

Ipoh Parade after that.
Bought two huge bags, and a black flats.
Then when I was on the way to a boutique to get some formal shirts,
I received a phone call form the BP Centre,
telling me there's albumin in my urine.
Omg. Why is there egg white in my urine??? LOL.
Maybe I ate too much the previous night.
Steamboat mah, eat till you die,
of course have to take banyak banyak.
So later I got to retake the urine test again,
and probably I will be staying inside the toilet for the whole morning this time.
Damn.

After that, went to CIMB Bank to open a bank account for PTPTN and Uni fees.
Bumped into Danis, who claimed to be not going to Sabah.
Why, Danis????? Why?????
One more friend down.
8 confirmed going.
Ishhh.
Mum fetched sis from school after the account thingy was done,
then headed to Secret Recipe
because yesterday was my sis' 18th birthday!
Omg my sis is 18!!!!
No I am not 20!!!! Absolutely not!
After that we went home to have some rest
because my mum and I were really exhausted to death.

Went to JJ at night to shop for formal attires with Kar Leong.
Ended up he got 2 pairs of slacks,
2 pairs of long pants, a shirt,
while me, a girl, bought only a shirt and a slack.
Guys can be pretty scary when they have to do some serious shopping.
Went home, tried my sis' formal attires on,
let my parents see my PRO-businesswoman-formal-cool look (Dad said very nice!),
took beauty bath, sleep.
Okay I should go change now.
Going to BP Centre later.
Gahhhhh.

Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
I AM STARVING.
I WANT CHICKEN MCMUFFIN.

P.S./ I got my lappie!!!! Toshiba! Silver! Because they don't have pink in Malaysia. :S

I've counted until the 46586986th sheep.

Can't sleep!

Booked plane and bus tickets, and a hotel room
before we went out for Father's Day dinner just now.
Friday 7.30p.m. flight.
A day earlier from the registration day.
From KL to Kota Kinabalu.
Mum and dad will be going with me
because a scatterbrain like me might get lost in the airport,
as easy as farting.
Oh well.

Death cert

Hey guys,
after an emotional-to-the-max discussion with my parents,
decision is made.
Picked Sabah and the Nemo and whales and dolphins and plankton.
And so I clicked on the 'Setuju terima',
will probably get my offer letter within 2 days.

Good thing is I can get my new lappie in a week's time!
And I am going to have my very first flight very soon.
New life.
New friends.
New environment.
New rules to obey.
New knowledge.
I am quite looking forward to it already,
except for the rules part, of course.
UMS is sort of strict I heard.

People!
Find me out if anyone of you is in Ipoh ok?
Wanna have some nice get-together with y'all
before I fly off to Sabah on this Saturday.
I hope the line there won't be a slut.
LOL.
So I can blog and tell you guys my life and new experiences.
:)

Think in a positive way.

Wait for my good news/death cert

My mum has gone mad again.
Gosh I hate it when she show that face.
Like people in the whole world and even the aliens in the whole universe did something bad to her.
See, counsellor is indeed needed in this house.
I am trying to help my family k.
LOL.

Woke up freaking early, like 6.30am. this morning
and went back to Sam Tet for a STOBA talk.
There were so many seniors there,
seniors alone occupied the last 3 rows in the lecture hall.
And they were super talkative, man!
So noisy I could barely heard what the person in front was saying.
I felt like standing up, hit the table,
and shout SHUT UP!
Didn't do it as last as I didn't want to spoil my good girl image.
Haha.
All of us juniors were being good boys and girls,
we really were paying attention to the PTPTN thingy k.
I should have sitting at the front.
Imagine the noise of 3 rows of talkative people right behind you,
I heard some guys talking about DOTA and American Idol.
OMG.
Ended up swearing together with my friends and got nothing useful.

Anyway, am still considering which path shall I choose.
Will let you guys know ASAP, alright?
I have to make up my mind really fast.
Got to register and move everything to Sabah in a week's time
if I want to drown myself in the sea of Sabah.
Or I'll stay in Ipoh and wait for HELP's August intake,
so you guys can still find me out for drinks for 2 bloody months.
:)

Oh well.
Wish me luck.

Drown me! Drown me!

Guess what.


NAMA: HA XIN JUE
KATEGORI: S - Kategori STPM 2008 Aliran Sains
ANGKA GILIRAN : SA2121026

TAHNIAH!

Anda telah berjaya ditawarkan program pengajian seperti berikut :

KOD PROGRAM : HS40

NAMA PROGRAM : SAINS MARIN
IPTA : UNIVERSITI MALAYSIA SABAH (UMS)
URL SURAT TAWARAN : http://www.ums.edu.my/kemasukan

CATATAN :

1) Calon boleh mencapai Surat Tawaran melalui Laman Web IPTA mulai 19 Jun 2009 dan calon WAJIB mengesahkan SETUJU TERIMA TAWARAN sebelum 26 Jun 2009.


WTF.
Yayaya I got a lousy course that I've wished for.
The problem now is my parents have some sort of liking for UMS,
because they heard their FRIENDS saying that UMS is a nice place.
So they want me to go for it.
I was like Pardon me????
They want me to study Marine Science
and do scuba diving for the rest of my life,
searching for whales and sharks and Nemos under the sea???
HELLO?

Oh my god.
I don't know what I should do now.
Kill me please.
Really. I mean it.

Rilakkuma ♥

Came across this innocent looking bear in Popteen.
Apparently it is really popular in Japan,
there're exhibitions held all over the country,
its popularity is like at the same level as Hello Kitty.
Seriously.
There are shops in Japan which specially sell Rilakkuma's products,
just like Hello Kitty.
And its products are countless omg,
from slippers to cups to plates to aprons to key chains to pens to panties to even tooth brush!
Anything you could ever think of.
I reckon the Rilakkuma shops are 10 times bigger than any Watson in Malaysia,
so every Rilakkuma stuff can fit into the shop.

How can you not like Rilakkuma?
It has a forever innocent face and super cute big butt I swear!
Haha.
And it looks stupid. In a nice way la.

One day I will get myself a hugeeeeee Rilakkuma
and a lot of small small ones to turn my room into a Rilakkuma Heaven.

Akakakaka!

Murmurs

Days in Ipoh are lifeless, as usual.
To my dismay, it is getting more and more lifeless day by day.
Everyday at the moment I wake up,
I feel like my life is totally meaningless.
And without any purpose living at all.
I feel like sleeping forever, sometimes,
because there is nothing for me to look forward to.

Uni's offer is out on this friday.
I hope I get the worse course
and the most lousy uni in the whole Malaysia, though.
So I can show my parents how strong my dissatisfaction is,
and hopefully I get to enter HELP for psychology courses.
Ngek ngek ngek.
I am evil.

Anyway,
went to Tasek to visit Sasa
for this is her very last day working in her sis' restaurant,
AND I had fried squid there!
I missed that plate of fried squid so freaking much, I tell you.
Went to JJ after that.
Where else?
Ipoh is a terribly boring place omg.
Did some dumb things and snapped a lot of stupid photos.
Not gonna post them up because I looked ugly in them.
Muahahaha.
Told ya I am evil!
:P

A very cute book!
Super random Qs and the answers can make one sweat. A LOT.
LOL!
Boyfriend said only stupid people read that book.
GRRRRRRR.

He's the typical guy that you normally would see in today's society, nothing too spectacular. In fact, you really have to concentrate in picking him out among the crowd. He's also easy going, has a sophisticated taste. He isn't boring or anything like that. Just that he would tend to be a little humble, has his own independent views, but keeps it to himself. If the situation requires, he can step forward and really make an impression on others.

The woman of his dream must not be the helpless lady type or too conservative, but must be a fighter with high perseverance. Women who are the fragile type or too ladylike are definitely not to his taste. She must be committed to overcome any obstacle in building up a family with him. Those from a rich family is definitely out. He prefers women whose fortune are self-made. This type of guy isn't selfish at all, but a real social contributor one can say. Don't worry, his requirements aren't really that high, you may pass the test you know.


Just for fun.
:P

Quiz

This is REALLY accurate.


Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.


Have a try and be ready to get scared by its accuracy here.
Haha.

Explanation

Okay.
The application stuff I mentioned earlier
was actually application for psychology courses in UTAR Kampar.
I went all the way down to the place yesterday
and paid for the registration fee and got info of the course.
Then later at night,
my dad asked me why was it stated SOCIAL SCIENCE on the pay list.
Just so you know,
psychology is a wide wide field.
So I wiki-ed behaviourial science,
which is the one I wish to study,
and I got this.

Difference between behavioural sciences and social sciences
The term behavioural sciences is often confused with the term social sciences. Though these two broad areas are interrelated and study systematic processes of behaviour, they differ on their level of scientific analysis of various dimensions of behaviour.
Behavioural sciences abstract empirical data to investigate the decision processes and communication strategies within and between organisms in a social system. This involves fields like psychology and social neuroscience (psychiatry), and genetics among others.
In contrast, Social sciences provide a perceptive framework to study the processes of a social system through impacts of social organization on structural adjustment of the individual and of groups. They typically include fields like sociology, economics, history, counselling, public health, anthropology, and political science (E. D. Klemke, R. Hollinger and A. D. Kline, eds., 1988).

And so,
the psychology UTAR offered is not the psychology I want.
Yea I know it is complicated.
Whatever.

Application fee, wasted.
Toll fee, wasted.
Petrol, wasted.
Our time and energy, wasted.

End of story.
:/

Haiz

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!
I am so stupid!
I can't believe I've made such a stupid mistake!

Sighhhhhhh.
Bloody guilt is washing over me like a giant wave,
over and over again.
I seriously feel like swearing.
For heaven's sake!
:((((((((

Last minute decision

Application settled.
:)
Am gonna do all the bankdraft things
and find a room tomorrow.
So freaking tired now.

I will be really busy in the following days.
Tell you guys the details after everything is done, alright?
It is good to be secretive once in a while.
Hahaha.

Lens lady :D

I ran downstairs,
stood in front of my parents who were chatting about 3D and Toto,
and asked
'Nice or not? Nice or not?'
My dad widened his eyes,
'Eh? Pretty wo.'
My mum smiled,
'Aiya. She is wearing contact lens la. Her real eyes where got so big one.'

Okay. =.=
I know I have small eyes.
You wouldn't want to look at the before-and-after.
I look terrible with my small REAL eyes.
LOL.
Sorry for the messy damp hair,
uneven tone of my AGAIN-chapped lips,
and the ugly faded shirt.
Just finished my beauty bath.
:D

Cheesy threat

That stupid rat is still in the house!
And it comes out at night!
My house is like a playground for it
and it wanders around in the house at night,
even when we are watching TV and stuff in the living room!
It always hops out of nowhere
and runs to the back of the cabinet and piano!
I just can't concentrate on the movies I am watching
because I am scared it might jump onto the couch
and rest beside me when I am unaware of it!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
When the heck will my dad chase it out of the house?????

The Other Boleyn Girl

There's a freaking rat in my house!
AHHHHHHHHHH!

Last night I was reading Shinchan in the study room,
then I felt something moving under the table.
I turned my head
and immediately jumped onto the couch
and shouted my lungs out.
There's a huge fat rat taking its own sweet time
crawling slowly like having a stroll after dinner.
My dad came into the room
and was like
Aiya. This kind of rats are not harmful one.
They go from house to house. Won't bite one!
then went out to watch his TV like nothing has happened.
WTH!
I was like WHAT???
Still standing on the couch somemore.
Then the stupid rat went off and hid at somewhere else.
Maybe it is still in the house.
Urgh!

Anyway,
this was on HBO earlier in the morning.

Was a great movie indeed.
Greed, power-craziness, betrayal, lust, sacrifice, loyalty.
Glued me on my couch.
:)

Hello, my cute little June lens! :D

Booked brown coloured lens.
:)
Thank you, dai gor hung.
Your mum is super friendly!
How I wish my mum could be that nice too lo.

Went for some cheap buffet lunch at Ritz Hotel.
RM12.90 per person.

The food is not bad,
but but but but but but,
there were flies dancing around my cakes
AND I swear I saw a baby cockroach in the chilies
when I was taking some food.
Holy crap.
So I just took cooked stuff and totally ignored the desserts.
Except for some hot chocolate banana.
Roaches will just die in that heat, right?
HMMMM.

Great day.

Got my driving license renewed this morning.
I am no longer a P-licensed driver.
Now I am a proper driver who don't drive.
:)

Got pocket money from dad.

Went to JJ.
Bought a pink strapless top from PDI,
because there's no more S size of white left, :((((
a white top from SEED instead of the grey one,
Silkygirl's liquid eyeliner which is unexpectedly a bomb,
it is incredibly easy to apply on,
a lot like Revlon's but so much cheaper,
and 3 episodes of Zombie Loan.
Felt so nice to finally get to spend!
Hahahahahahahahahahahaha.

Didn't get to watch Night At The Museum yet, though.
People are still super free!

All of a sudden. Really.

Am kind of craving for Choc Banana right now.
WTH.

Could anyone kindly go get it for me?
:((((((
I seriously need choc and banana to boost my dopamine and endorphin level.


Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

I am tired.

I am tired of listening to my parents' lectures about what a loser I am.
I am tired of pretending to be interested in their lectures
just because I don't want them to think I don't appreciate them.
I am tired of answering their questions
about where I think my future lies and what am I supposed to do now
because that bloody USM doesn't want to be good to me.

Oh please.
Sometimes I loathe them so much
for being so overprotective.
Too much love can somehow kill.

Please please please,
I beg you.
Put yourselves in my shoes
and ditch the thought that I am immature and stubborn,
and that everything your friends tell is always true.
As my friend said back then,
the most worrying situation is when your mum is surrounded by a group of 8 po.
That is so true.

My life is in such a mess.