Sick.

Pain.

One great piece.

Both my parents are Malay. My mum's heritage includes Chinese, Thai and Arab, while my dad is Minangkabau. Due to my skin colour, I am often mistaken for a Chinese.

I'm happy that I don't have the typical Malay look but I do get annoyed when people call me Ah Moi or ask me straight up "Are you Chinese or Malay"

Like, why does it matter? Before I used to answer "Malay" but now I'm trying to consciously answer Malaysian instead.

There's this incident from primary school that I remember till today. Someone told me that I will be called last during Judgement Day because I don't have a Muslim name. Of course, I was scared then but now that I'm older, I realise that a name is just a name. It doesn't define you as a good or bad person and there is definitely no such thing as a Muslim name. You can be named Rashid or Ali and still be a Christian.

I've heard of the 1Malaysia concept, but I think we don't need to be told to be united. We've come such a long way that it should already be embedded in our hearts and minds that we are united. Unfortunately, you can still see racial discrimination and polarisation. There is still this ethno-centric view that the Malays are the dominant group and their rights must be protected, and non Malays are forever the outsiders.

For the concept to succeed, I think the government should stop with the race politics. It's tiring, really. We grew up with application forms asking us to tick our race.. We should stop painting a negative image of the other races, stop thinking about 'us' and 'them' and focus on 'we', 'our' and 'Malaysians'.

No one should be made uncomfortable in their own home. A dear Chinese friend of mine said to me once, "I don't feel patriotic because I am not made to feel like Malaysia is my home, and I don't feel an affinity to China because I have never lived there.

I know some baby Nyonya friends who can trace their lineage back hundreds of years. I'm a fourth generation Malaysian. If I am Bumiputra, why can't they be, too? Clearly I have issues with the term.

I think the main reason why we still can't achieve total unity is because of this 'Malay rights' concept. I'd rather 'Malay rights' be replaced by human rights. So unless we get rid of this Bumiputra status, or reform our views and policies on rights, we will never achieve unity.

For my merdeka wish, I'd like for Malaysians to have more voice, to be respected and heard. I wish that the government would uphold the true essence of parliamentary democracy.. I wish for the people to no longer fear and discriminate against each other, to see that we are one and the same.

I wish that Malaysia would truly live up to the tourism spin of Malaysia truly Asia. Malaysians to lead - whatever their ethnic background. Only ONE NATIONALITY MALAYSIAN. No Malays, No Chinese, No Indians - ONLY MALAYSIANS.. Choose whatever religion one is comfortable with.


MERDEKA
MERDEKA
MERDEKA

--- Sharyn Lisa Shufiyan, 24, Conservationist.

Tunku Abdul Rahman's great granddaughter.

:)

Buenos tardes.
Como estas?

I am loving the weather.
It has been raining since last night.
The sun was out when I was on my way home after spanish class,
and it is now raining again.
So windy so wet so calming.
Not a single drop of sweat after nap.

I am getting well.
No worries. :)

Muay bien. ♥♥♥

Iamsick.

Sore throat cough flu
and now fever.
It is so suffering to be sick when the timetable is so packed.
I walk to IPMB everyday with half-closed eyes and tired legs
every morning for lectures and afternoon for labwork.
And damn it, why did they have to build that place at the farthest end in the uni???

My taste buds are not functioning well.
I have tasteless food everyday and guess what,
last night my Darlie tasted the same as Colgate wtf.
Even my nose was playing tricks on me.
My Garnier body lotion smells like watermelon.
Seriously.

Updates too!

Okay I know I haven't been updating for a while.

Wasn't in the mood to write after I was pulled away from my paradise

and found myself waking up in this shit island the next morning.

Anyway, I am having a new semester

and I vowed to study and strive hard this time

so it won't disappoint me when the result is out.

Sabah is now not that hot

compared to the time when I just reached here as a freshman of my uni.

I am used to the sudden change of the weather.

It can be sunny in the morning

but suddenly it is raining cats and dogs in the afternoon,

then it turns sunny after that,

and the next minute it is cloudy.

My new semester is a crazily hectic one,

I have 3 majors and all of them include lectures, practicals/labwork and tutorials.

So I will have to pass up 3 reports every week,

plus I am also having a computer labwork soon

because programming course is in my syllabus too wtf.

Out of the five working days in a week,

I have to be in the uni from 8a.m. to 5p.m. in four days.

Crazy or not?

Luckily the vitamin C my mom recommended keeps me energetic throughout the day.

Without it I believe I would faint during every of my practicals.

Went to 1Borneo today because I need to buy swimsuit wtf.

I brought one from home which looks something like this,

but then all of us were told by our coach and seniors

to wear something like this during swimming lessons,

because it is more SOPAN.

Crap.

So I spent almost RM100 on the new swimsuit,

went home, phoned my mom

and told her how bloody expensive things are in Sabah.

My heart was bleeding when I paid.

Anyway I have decided to try to save as much as possible

after I saw my dad frowned when we talked about money back at home.

Heartache to see my cute dad frown, you know.

Complained to the 3rd year housemate about the price,

he said "Wah, looks like now you finally insaf."

WHATTTTTT?

My money management so char meh last semester????

Anyhow, went for the super goooooooood tomyam soup in the mall today.

It has got to be the best tomyam soup in Sabah!

So sour, so spicy, OMG I am salivating now!

No pictures because I didn't bring my camera.

Show you guys the soup next time!

OMG I miss the soup!

Thought.

Am thinking of turning my blog private.
How do you guys think? :)

My no.2 cute driver. *smooch smooch*

Yum yum yum yum.

Got myself a floral print dress today.
Super duper love it.
Happy happy.

Yeeeee eyebags! :/

Oh-so-boring new year eve.

That was me on new year eve.

If you went to Voodoo
you might see this girl standing outside of the club
because she couldn't go in
as she was wearing a frigging tee
with a LARGE spongebob squarepants on it,
short pants and a pair of sandals.

Went for steamboat + bbq at 2plus1 with the boyfriend's friends
whom I am not even close to.
I only heard of their names from the bf.
Saw Logic and his gang of friends
and I swear I am closer to them than to those people I am eating with.
Logic and Munk did come to our table and talked to me.
Only then I got to talk if not I would be sitting there quietly all evening eating.

Wasn't in the mood to go for countdown at first
because I was really bored.
Then after eating friends of the bf wanted to have another round
so they suggested Voodoo as there were fireworks at 0000.
But the problem was
I was wearing tshirt, and worse,
the guys were wearing pants and slippers.
So we stood at the entrance, waited for the time to come,
shouted 321, watched the fireworks and went home.

Such aimless.
It was not even happening there because nobody was shouting and stuff like that.
Everybody just stood there like a wood
and watched fireworks.
I should have followed Logic to Rum.
Sis went to Rum and told me how fun was the night when she got home with a red face.
Arrrrggghhhhhhh.

We should go goyang goyang and shout our lungs out last night at Rum, Li ying!
My first regret in 2010.

Anyway,
Happy 2010, peepo!
Enjoy and appreciate every single minute
and start planning to a great year awaiting ahead! :D

My new year resolution?
Above 3.5 in final exams.